Seasons of Joy: Precious Memories

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I’ve not written a precious memory or seasons of joy post for a while.  I’ve been trying to cut down on my blog writing so I can focus on a couple of other writing projects.  This Seasons of Joy/ Precious Memory mash-up post covers bits and pieces which have been going on over the past few weeks.

Friends and Family

Life has calmed down over the past year or so.  When one isn’t dealing with serious health issues and one is finally sleeping like a baby, one’s life takes on a whole new and more relaxed perspective and it feels really good.

We have a lovely rhythm to our weeks and months.  We are all trying to make our weekends slower and really different from the rest of the week.  Once a month we drive down to the nearest beach.  There is no place on earth I feel as close to God and as a family it is a widely anticipated day trip out:

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Once a week we have our baby sitter come so Gary and I can go out on a weekly date.  Now some might say we don’t fully make the best of these nights, given we eat at Sainsbury’s and then go for a weekly shop!  Thing is, we have so much fun together, it doesn’t really matter where we go.  It makes sense to get a job done whilst enjoying ourselves.  All five children adore Emma and they all have a great time whilst we are gone:

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More time has meant more visiting friends:

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Andrew and I know each other from our school days, when we caught the same bus together for six years.  He would have been one of my favourite friends during my teenage years and we have been friends for well over 25 years.  He is married with children now and it has been lovely to see our children building friendships with his.  He is big into his cycling which Gary and T13 also enjoy, whilst his gorgeous wife and I get on really well.  I remember when I was completely overwhelmed having three babies under the age of one, she would come over every Friday and be my shining light amid the mess of nappies and spit up!

We also still get together with Lorna.  Remember Lorna?  My friend who always claimed to beat me at badminton (which, of course, she didn’t.  Ever)?  Our families still meet up once a week alternating homes and eating a baked potato and toppings feast.  Lorna has just decided to home school her daughter and K11 will be joining us for one day each week.  I think it will be really fun adding another student to the mix and the girls can’t wait!

We also get together with another home schooling family which has been such a blessing to us all.  Vikki has seven children.  T13 and her eldest boy are getting on so well.  They are currently building a chicken pen in his back garden.  The rest of the children play at gymnastics and dress up, although if we are at our house (we alternate) the older ones will go for a long bike ride.  And Vikki and I chat.  Do you know how lovely it is to have deliciously long conversations with another adult?  I am very thankful for my friends.

Friends are so important to experiencing joy and I am so grateful for having the time and opportunity to see some of mine on a regular basis.

Fun Times with the Little Ones

The little ones have been joining in with lots of the bigger children’s schooling making pomanders:

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and making some foam crowns out of a kit:

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I am enjoying the novelty of having all my children be old enough to choose an activity, set it out, do it and then clean up….all independently.  On that note my littlest is now out of nappies overnight.  It is bittersweet, knowing that she is my littlest and I will never again have a child in nappies.  That said, I am not altogether unhappy about that prospect.

Here the girls are playing and creating:

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and here they are watching some indoor fireworks, some Dr Seuss school and more dress up using bits and pieces their older sisters made for Elizabeth I coronation:

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All things are possible…

I am still fairly free of sugar, which is really quite incredible, and I feel much healthier.  But something else is changing as well.  It was almost imperceptible at first but I am now definitely noticing more and more.  And that thing is my attitude towards myself.

The verse I have been focusing on for weeks has been Romans 8 v12-14:

So don’t you see that we don’t owe this old do-it-yourself life one red cent. There’s nothing in it for us, nothing at all. The best thing to do is give it a decent burial and get on with your new life. God’s Spirit beckons. There are things to do and places to go!

And Ephesians 4 v20-24:

Since, then, we do not have the excuse of ignorance, everything—and I do mean everything—connected with that old way of life has to go. It’s rotten through and through. Get rid of it! And then take on an entirely new way of life—a God-fashioned life

I wondered why God had me stop here, and no matter how much I mentally tried to figure out exactly what it was that He wanted me to do, I still felt there was something I was missing.

Over the past couple of weeks I have discovered what that something was.  Except it wasn’t something He wanted me to do, more something He wanted to do in me.

One of the things I love the most about Gary is his very deep belief in himself.  Honestly, no-one thinks he is more wonderful that he does!  And yet he is also really humble and not at all boastful.  He has a quiet confidence which means he is always game for anything.  He’ll happily try anything, turn his hand to anything.  He fears nothing.  If someone asks for help he will do all he can to help even if he doesn’t have the requisite skills.  I have a different confidence.  I am confident in anything I know I am capable of doing.  The rest, though, not so much.  But it is worse than that, because those things I am not so confident in I won’t even try.  It’s only been the last few years I’ve felt confident enough to sing in church out loud.  I’ve never wanted to ruin anyone else’s worship so I’ve kept quiet.  Funnily enough I was in my school choir for years and never sang, not even once, just mouthed the words.  I don’t have the confidence, like Gary has, to try anything I might fail at.  And this seems to be what God is changing right now.

I have begun certain projects I have wanted to do for years but never felt they would be any good, so what was the point?  God is teaching me that the joy is not in the excellence with which something is done (or not done as the case may be), but rather it is the faith with which it is done.  Gary is fearless and full of faith in God, himself and others.  It is this fearlessness I can feel begin to infiltrate me as the fearfulness subsides.

God is helping me to give the untruths of my childhood a decent burial.  It is not the type of burial that someone or something might be able to dig up at a later date; no, it is a proper, burying-it-deep, never-to-be-seen again kind of decent burial.  I can literally feel the weight of all the nastiness of my childhood being physically lifted out of my heart and soul and being replaced by a new feeling of fearlessness.  It is very exciting and incredibly freeing.  God is freeing me from my past.  Do you know how big this is for me?

I am currently exploring things I would never have had the courage to even contemplate before.  I am beginning to live a God fashioned life.  I am beginning to live my God fashioned life.  I am free.

So if the Son sets you free, you are free through and through (John 8 v36)

22 comments

  1. The problem I have with commenting on these posts is I see so many things I want to comment to.
    Having an adult friend to sit and have tea with is gorgeous.
    I think any date night you and your husband are enjoying is the perfect night for you.
    And about a million other things, but those are the two I remembered by the time I was done reading.

  2. I turned on my computer tonight and was bombarded with negative stories all over Yahoo and then saw my email from you and immediately clicked to that because of your postivie, upbeat attitude. So encouraging, Claire! Thank you for sharing your walk with God. On a side note– We just got back from a two week trip to the UK and had a most lovely time! It’s a beautiful, beautiful place. Very different from New Mexico in the US, from which I hail!

    1. I smiled so much at this comment! Thank you Tara. Sometimes sharing private stuff can be daunting and it is comments like this which make it worth the risk. I’m so glad you enjoyed England. I think you probably came over quite a good time given the weather. The sun does not always shine over in the emerald isles!

  3. Simply and beautifully put! Freedom and confidence opens to the door to endless possibilities! I love how Jesusnputs it: when He sets us free we’re not somewhat free… No, we’re free indeed! For sure! Without a doubt! Go on in this new found freedom and strength! Cheering you on from Pennsylvania, USA, where my favorite daily activity is sipping hot tea with my children or a friend.

  4. I always enjoy catching up with you. Your honestly and positive outlook on life is very encouraging. What lovely times you all are having. I love the pomanders. They came out great.
    Blessings, Dawn

    1. Thank you Dawn. When I first stating sharing all this I was very unsure whether to post the posts public but Gary said I had such lovely readers I would probably receive a lot of encouragement from them. And he was right, I do 🙂

  5. Claire, you sound so peaceful in this post. I do believe you have found the key to your soul. There is a difference in this post from many others. You are always an encouragement, but this time there is just something different. I am so happy you have friends to share special times, a husband who simply adores you as you are, and of course, those gorgeous children who light up your life. I am so happy that you are reaping the fruits of God’s blessings. Love you, my friend. So happy for you today!

    1. Thank you Donna. You are an encouragement to me! It’s funny, although I have only just begun writing about it God has been working in me these nine months or so since I handed over control of my weight. It seems such a simple thing to do, now, but at the time was really quite hard. I’m still not entirely sure why I waited the forty years it took me 🙂
      xxx

  6. Wow, Claire. You are such an encouragement to me.

    I have been really struggling with trying things over the last several years ….if I can’t do them “perfectly” or if I am not confident in doing them….then I won’t do it. The rug was pulled out from under me which left a huge scar and a huge amount of distrust, I think. I watch my Pastor’s wife do all kinds of things because she does them for the Lord and trusts him to shine through her…also she does it for Him…..like make a joyful noise. She inspires me to try more things, as your post has also. Slowly, I am coming back and learning to trust the Lord and let him shine through me, let him use me….not Brenda power…the Lord’s power. Getting rid of those lies that I bought into!

    I hope that makes sense 🙂

    Thanks so much for sharing, Claire.

    Blessings,

    Brenda

    1. Thank YOU for sharing. Brenda, you have had more than most to cope with and you have done so with dignity and complete devotion to God. Try not to be too hard on yourself. I believe many people look at you and your husband and feel the same way you do about your pastor’s wife. We all have our struggles and we all have our victories. And God is with us through both. You are always an inspiration to me and I am so pleased to be able to encourage you even a little bit.

  7. Loving yourself is one of the hardest things to do, and I think it is particularly difficult for the average woman as society doesn’t seem to encourage female self-confidence. I’m so glad God is working in you on that front! It is a long slow process, isn’t it? I’ve only recently recognised the need to get started on that path in myself, so it is encouraging to read that you’re walking ahead of me 🙂

    1. Thank you, May, for reading my blog and leaving heartfelt comments like this one. I hope you will be as blessed by your journey as I have been by mine.

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